I’m afraid to cut my hair!

Ok insert laughing here or rolling of the eyes at the title of this post but wait, hear me out…


I recently met a new mom in my neighborhood. I’ve seen her around for a few weeks now because it seems our daughters go to the same school. It turns out that our daughters are also in the same Ballet class and yesterday, she introduced herself to me. The reason I’ve noticed her around the ‘hood before is because she has really short hair (and AWESOME grown up braces). Like cute, pixie, I look like I just rolled out of bed, did nothing to my hair and I still look like a million bucks, hair. We talked for a while and she was soooo easy to talk to. Oh and not only does she run her own social media marketing company, she’s a speaker, an author AND a web therapist…basically a bada$$ in a tiny little body! And man oh man, I love meeting vibrant new women! One of my besties who I mentioned in a previous post about her TWO sets of twins, she too has short hair and runs a MAJOR hotel! Another bada$$ in a tiny package! Then ANOTHER neighbor of my mine has that Claire from House of Cards hair. Short and sassy. Gorgeous not only on the outside but on the inside too. And SHEEE owns her own very amazing Yoga company! Seriously…these women!  And these are just the few that I mentioned.
IMG_1923Here’s how they all tie into my fear of cutting my hair. Years ago, BBC, (Before Breast Cancer), I cut my hair into a short bob. It was my choice and I looooved it. Then I grew it out because that was my choice too. When I got sick though, my really long hair started to fall out and it was scarier than I thought it was going to be. I immediately ran to my salon (Thank you Vis-A-Vis The Salon in Buckhead) and had them chop it off. The thing is though, it wasn’t my “choice” to chop it hair2 off. I was sick, doing chemo. radiation, blah blah blah and NO part of that whole losing your hair thing was fun. When my hair started growing back after chemo, I didn’t even want to try and enjoy the short hair cus I was so obsessed with growing my hair back and boy it grew back. In fact, that is all I have been doing for about the last four years. Growing and growing and growing. Seriously, like Rapunzel…and although my daughters and I love that Disney movie, it has been getting out of control and I knew it needed to be trimmed. Ok, CUT! So when I went to see my guys Jeffrey and Shawn today at Vis-A-Vis, I said I wanted to go all Kelly Ripa on them but the truth is, I couldn’t do it. I am not ready. If you have ever lost most or all of your hair from Cancer, you probably understand.

2015-09-16 14.12.02I wish I could say I am not that insecure, but alas…I can’t. I would love to be like those women above. All free willy nilly and confident with their cute short hair but that’s not me and I reminded myself today, that it’s okay! Their short hair isn’t what makes them confident or even who they are, it’s their hearts…their souls. And my confidence is there too, it comes from what is on my inside AND because I am a Survivor ANNNNND ok for now, sometimes because of my long hair. lol So I’m just gonna be me, long hair and all and who knows, maybe I will cut it someday and maybe I won’t. 😉

XO Surviving Mommy

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  • Marie says:

    How about grow your hair out enough to where you can donate to locks of love when you want to cut it shorter. 🙂

  • Stacy Moldovan says:

    You are stunning!!!!

  • Ashley Davis says:

    I love your long hair! Mine is solo long now too! Getting the cut itch also! Lol

  • Teresa Kick says:

    You looked so cute with short hair! I would love to think I could rock it short but I am so scared it will look terrible. I’m almost 57 and I haven’t had short hair since I was a kid. It’s so hot I usually have it in a ponytail but I would love to have a short, choppy cut and look cute. By the way my birthday is the day before yours!

  • Rachel Placek says:

    I’m sporting long hair right now and I love it! My twin has one of those cute pixie cuts and she loves it and gets lots of compliments:) You just got to do what’s right for you at the time. Not everyone looks great with long hair but you do so rock it while you can. I am:) Love your posts…stay true to yourself like you are and don’t be your worst judge. You are beautiful and really making a difference to a lot of women out there.

  • Michelle says:

    I get it…I lost all of my hair to BC last year…I knew it was going to happen but I was still shocked and panicked when it actually happened. When my hair started growing back I realized it actually looked better short! But no matter what you decide, the only thing that matters is that it is your decision! You look beautiful no matter what! 🙂

  • Beth says:

    I love your long hair! Mine started growing back at the beginning of June, so I only have about 1 1/2 inches, and I am so jealous of ANYONE with long hair. You have earned the right to keep it just as long as you want!

  • Taylor says:

    That’s what’s so fabulous about you- it looks fantastic at every length! 😍

  • Lorrie says:

    Great post! I totally hear you on the power of choice when it comes to hair! I’ve had LOTS of hair lengths and had great long hair (when it was styled which was 10% of the time ha). I went short since the time I was spending in hair chairs de-greying or straightening my hair (not to mention the chemicals I was putting on my hair!) was beginning to not feel like my choice. Your hair is stunning and it means something – more than it does to most people. <3

  • Olivine Eyes says:

    I think you would look great no matter what your hair length is. I love having long hair myself.

    • 🥓 says:

      I’m a short haired girl like my mom. I think you would look boss with a short pixie. But with cancer in the past I think I could totally understand why you would want to keep it long after not for quite some time. You’re the real heros, survivors! I’m great full not to have gotten it and hopefully never do. You keep ballin’! If short hair rocks your world, than keep it. But you should try it someday, it’s a great experience!! Btw you look beautiful with your long, blonde locks. And sorry if I came off harsh for short hair, I’m young. 😂

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